we're running out of gas

shooting stars are not stars at all. they're just rocks that enter the atmosphere and catch fire under friction. what we wish on, when we see one, is only a trail of debris.

-

"you don't have to say anything if you don't want to."

she lies down, her head pillowed against my shoulder. every second, another streak of silver glows: parentheses, exclamation points, commas - a whole grammar made of light, for words too hard to speak.

-my sister's keeper. jodi picoulti.



-


sort of hibernating
i think sometimes i need that..
wonder how people go for endless parties and not grow weary.
but then again,
thats just me.


anyways.
eternal throb in my head!
it only occurs repetitively every afternoon.
cant blame it on math since i have officially left my brains to disintegrate ever since promos..


how now brown cow..
should i quit my job as a tutor..??
i wont be employed and be part of the paycheck-recieving working population to contribute to the economy! (though im aware that my measly pay hardly counts for anything but still.!)

i think i might miss the kids..
esp the 8 year old! (yesyes my favourite friend ah. haha)
though she sometimes cooks up fictatious comments like 'teacher i like your smile cos you look like a baby' :\ (imagine an 8 year old telling an almost 17 year old that she resembles an infant!!)
but sometimes also says the truth 'i love wendy teacher!'
and she also cries when i dont turn up or turn up later than usual..
so awww.
and how could i forget when we had such fun playing play-doh..
and when i sat there listening to her whine about how she hates her sister cos she stole her clothes, didnt let her cross the line of separation on their table.. (though i know deep down she loves her)
and how she persuaded me not her friend her classmates who pissed her off cos 'they very irritating one you know' (though i obviously dont know any of them..nor did i agree not to friend them cos in the first place, we arent even friends.! a logic she will never comprehend..)
and when she quizzed me endlessly about my boyfriend (who is, of course, non existent, but she somehow knows better than me myself and every week never fails to doodle stickmen on the whiteboard and surreptitiously scrawls 'wendy's boyfriend' on top of the spiky head of the latter..)
and..

okay so i will miss the kid.
:(
its so strange if you think about it..
never thought i'd grow fond of an 8 year old and actually be friends..


-


my train of thoughts suddenly backtracks to friday!

sometimes you just have good times with people
you dont exactly plan it but when the night falls and you find yourself walking around amongst well-lit streets (with a new buy in tow :), talking and gaining epiphany (of yourself and of the other person too) AND eating favourite one dollar ice cream (hahah), it makes me reallyyy happy.

happened a few times with different people
and the next time,
i hope it'd be with you.
but errr..
pretend i didnt say that..


-


we were such geeky thirteen year olds,
i miss all of that.
(you and your soccer socks!)

HAPPY 17TH, TINGS :D
GREATGREATGREAT year ahead,
i love you!

(details to be further recieved :)

shaded by the red

am turning into a full pledged ah ma / aunty..
first my mum said i dress like one when i attempted to look formal
then me and Da realise our eyelids are growing heavy at around 5+ cos we havent taken our afternoon naps (something we have coincidentally adopted post promos..)
and now i find myself very interested in Fullhouse..cant wait for Tings to come back and lend me! (though i dont know what on earth is she doing watching Korean drama in LA and how she laid her hands on the foreign object..)

:
goodness gracious.


anyway, pw op dry run was ohkay i guess
was a nervous wreck but gradually grew tired of waiting and it wore off
haha.


hrmm. some people, tsktsk. whyy again and again.


anyways, the discovery of the existence of infrared-ing and developing photos was amazing! though some people thought we were taking neoprints, YES..

had nice and mellow day with the Dsf,
old friends always feel good.
for some reason, i wish i was still an ij girl.

Nana also troubled Mr. Darling in another way
He sometimes had a feeling she did not admire him.
-Peter Pan


-


phi just lying aroundd on a Sunday with you's the best <3 stop deserting me with secret trips to Far East! >:| thanks for the cuteeee eraser :D my nails STILL smell of really strong nail polish!
nana THANKS for cookies ah, lucks for tmrw, The Confrontation..
TINGS haircut was :\ miss you! call me soon? (:
jyingz your call at 11pm was NOT lame at all ah..


for once, no tutoring!
hurrah!


breakfast buffet was : O
everyone had more than one helping
omgness the choc cream puff and eclair ! it just oozes out..
was blissfully contented, haha

my cousin who got married is like, 30 years old.
she looks like she's in her mid-twenties!
imagine when IM thirty!
sheeshhhh.

anywayy
had failed tanning mission 101 AGAIN
was up at Nana's rooftop, so just sat there talking
bought kitten heels (Charm! cheers, MATE :)
halloween costume plans! mighty exciting!
hope it doesnt all diminish like it always did..
dinner at Nooch w Ree was lovelyyyyyy, caught up a lil (:


-


a lil sth frm old OC eps!


Summer: The more time i spend with zach, the less times i think about ... God, what's his face? Built like a bean pole, curly hair, runs away like a little bitch on his sailboat, leaving nothing but a note for his girlfriend who cried over and over for him until the Fourth of July until she decides she doesn't cry over bitches on sailboats.
Marissa: Seth. His name. It's Seth.

Seth: Mom, I'm not feeling well today, I don't think I can go to school.
Ryan: Maybe you've gt the SUMMERf lu. Maybe you need some ANNAbiotics.

Alex: She can't fall for you if you aren't there to catch her.


:D


school tmrw.
draggg.

When you close your eyes
Do you like what you see?
Inside your mind
And do you like to dream
About the stars above?
Once in a while
Don't go to the other side
For nothing at all
Better make it worth your while
I'm gonna break down that wall
I'm gonna take the fall
Cause

Don't go to the other side
For once in a while
Once in a while


the best friend just called
she always seem to when im down and in the midst of emailing her haha
and now im happy (:

On the plane step up with both my feet,
Riding in seat number 3 on a flight to NYC,
Got my bean in a coffee cup next to my seat,
Catch the view and another good book to read,
Sending me home on the friendly skies,
Missin' her eyes,
It's always Penny and me tonight,

Cause Penny and me like to roll the windows down,
Turn the radio up, and push the pedal to the ground,
And Penny and me like to gaze at starry skies,
Close our eyes, pretend to fly,
It's always Penny and me tonight,

Staring at a million city lights,
But it's still Penny and I all alone beneath the sky,
Feel the wind brushing slowly by,
If I could soar I would try, to take these wings and fly,
Away to where the leaves turn red,
But no matter where I am instead,
Singin' along to feelin' alright,
We're makin' it by in the pink moonlight,
It's always Penny and me tonight,

Penny likes to get away,
And drown her pain, in lemonade,
And Penny Dreams Of Rainy Days,
And Nights Up Late By The Fireplace
An aimless conversations bout' the better days


reminds me of tings, (remember this?)
makes me (:

p.s i really need your address!

love, actually, is all around

hee. as you can tell, just finished watching Love Actually again,
cant wipe off that cheesy smile off my face
this one's 5 popcorns!
:)
how pretty the rows of English houses are..
very very lovely.
hrmpf. i wanna live in England too!


anyway ystd ws quite :)
a sleepy candy empire trip secretly turned into a shopping affair..got high in ArtFriend by colour pencils (a box of markers can cost 931 bucks?!?! not $9.31, nine hundred and thirty one bucks!!) and intricate lil ornament stuff..and then ltr at HMV (dyknw tht SOUNDTRACKS can cost 50 bucks for one album..seriously doubt the overpriced cds are any good to 'stealing' music online..are are they mad?!?!?) and heated discussion at yoshinoya haha
and i bumped into dadeedoo and mina (who squealed in excitement in the middle of dhoby ghaut mrt station..haha) ! haha dinah whr were you..
haha nvm, shall be seeing these 3 ltr on, (secretly hoping all will be in favour of watching Goal or Corpse Bride)
chanmalis without tings..
ohwell.
reunion in dec though! :D


and btw, TINGS, i need your add ASAP!!
hurry email me your address ! and have you found out abt the code area nonsense thing? cant figure it out yet, cant call you!
p.s miss you!


anywayy results were ohkay,
Math was just really terrible though
but Econs was a pleasant surprise haha, just really lucky
hrm, hope no one has to retain in our class.. :

Steph, Ree, Nana,
PHEW.
told you you guys would promote..!


oh, had Friends marathon earlier with Yue Wen and Lay Zheng (HAHAH pls dnt kill me)
sweeeeetness :)
errr but Ree, i really dont think Chandler is "SO CHARMING!"
maybe a little feifei thats all..hahah.


and met Don, another day too, for dinner..
disgusting encounter before he came, but nevermind..
we walked round and round and caught up a lil..
furiously moving our legs and our mouths haha
so much has been going on in cj..tskkkkkk.
cant wait to see Hwing! :)


alrightyy
am off..


//EDIT
rightt.
yea so why dont you call me or even, reply my mail when you feel like it.
welllll.
i guess 5 years will never beat 10.
this seriously sucks.
i hate wrong timings.
and myself, for letting it happen.
but i cant help it!
and maybe you just stopped bothering.
maybe i dont seem it,
but i do think about you hell a lot
and i miss you like, a lot
and i tell everyone about you
and well, im sorry im not that chatty,
or funny, for that matter.
but everything has changed.
dont you care too?

what a beautiful smile
can i stay for a while


on a scale of 5,

elephant ; 2.5 popcorns
sisterhood of the travelling pants ; 4 popcorns
matchstick men ; 3.5 popcorns
laguna beach ; 3 popcorns
thirteen ; 3 popcorns
uncut oc ; 4.5 popcorns :D
hours catching up with sabrina wheeee + choc and banana walnuts ; 101 popcorns


things to do,

clean up my bedside table reallyyyy soon..huge mess.
delete friendster account..feeling lame now holding its membership..
get ready to tannnn with phi :D ..-looks at grey sky.. :prepare myself for reviewing of all the papers tmrw..HORRORS.
tinkerbell's 17th pres :)

-


some changes are good :)
others not..

discovery of wayyyy too drastic changes, -101 popcorns.


// EDIT
so not thinking about loss of my Ms. Rock..
or at least, i know
we're on our way there..
tell me i can lean on you again.

finch ;
Can't you see that I wanna be
there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one


got a whole list of new songs
but where is the poddie?!??!?
grr.
>:c

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

i wanna watch corpse's bride.!

Looking back
How did I get here?
Chasing circles
Never thought so near
I'm shaded by the red

so tonight
i realise
maybe what's right has always been wrong.
maybe it will never be right.


// tings; i miss i miss i miss you. :c

maybe thats what it takes ; alex parks

yayness,
the dreaded promos finally over!
will definitely not do well
but hoping to do ohkay..


ystd caught Into the Blue (reallyreally good ++ hot Jessica Alba constantly swimming around like a mermaid pls) with the Sporty minus busy nette..were totally drained and zombie-ish..though ice cream was yummy and random chitchatness suddenly dawned upon us..only to be replaced by sleepyness again..haha. 3hour papers are killers.

and today went shoppingggggg
:D :D
happiness!
phi iloveyou! hee. had a great great time :) (stop being so Maternity like pls! -shoots daggers at you)
LOVE/LIKE!
all the shops had really good stuff..like zara suddenly has this Out Of This World top..okay maybe just Out Of Singapore but its really..! okay but too big for me soooo..
but still, am a happy contented girl !
while everyone else is squashed up at the partyyy..


tutoring tmrw morning..
yikes.
really not looking fwd to it anymore.
despite the kids' cuteness. (only sometimes, when they arent nasty and playing fun play-doh with me haha)


grr awaiting my poddie placement AGAIN
i swear im so annoyed..
within TWO weeks my poddie's down AGAIN
i didnt even exactly drop it or anything..
its practically spanking new!
TSK.
another week and a half of music-less world.



on repeat.
lifehouse ; sick cycle carousel.
hot hot heat ; goodnight goodnight